randomness of life

Busy week!!

2009-11-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hi!! I just got back from busy scheds. I had a buys days these past few days due to UNDAS. I did some tasks and at last I did it well. Last Oct. 28, we fixed the tombstone of my grandma and clean the place so that we can stay there for a long hours. Then the next day we buy some foods that we will bring in the cemetery. Oct. 30 we buy candles for grandma and grandpa. And oh I almost forgot, we also visit my ninang`s place. Oh I so missed her. Oct. 31 night time, we buy flowers for our beloved ones. Nov. 1 afternoon we prepare the things we need to bring. The foods, the candles, the flowers, the mini chairs, and of course ourselves. As soon as we arrived there I saw my other cousins, titas, titos, we are all there. I`m glad that we are complete. Memories flashed back with me. A happy family, a bonding with them, an outing with them. Wait!! enough of drama things ahaha. By the way I made a 2 candles using "recycled" candles and here`s the photos :

See? I just did it ahaha. and I also took a photo of my grandma`s tombstone. Here`s the photo:

and her name is Herminia Z. Trajano.

New Haircut!!

2009-10-26T16:35:00.001+08:00

I had a new haircut yesterday. And I was a bit disappointed with the result. And the next time I want my hair cut I won`t go to that salon anymore. The hairstylist don`t follow what the customer`s wants. They do what they want. I`m kinda pissed with her. Maybe next month I`ll have my hair fix with rebonding it. Amf!! I really really hate that hairstylist. ~.~

Happy!!

2009-10-25T18:18:00.000+08:00

I`m totally fine. We *me and yoebs* are okei now. We talked awhile ago. Actually we`re still talking on the phone right now. And we cleared some things between us. And now that we are okei, I`m happy `cause I was able to tell him what I feel. And now while we talk we are happy like we didn`t had a problem. We are laughing like hell!! So much of happiness I can`t express what I feel. I`m mentally blocked. This is the first time that my mind can`t think any words or phrases to express what I feel. Anyway, I had a new haircut. And I`ll post some pictures later.

A painful heartache

2009-10-23T01:23:00.001+08:00

I hate myself for being a failure. Yeah I failed to fixed our problem and now that we`re through all I wanna do is cry. I admit that it`s all my fault. But heck!! I`m just a human who can`t do such thing as perfect. I`m not perfect. WE are not perfect. We are entitled to do a mistake. I can`t handle our relationship anymore. He wants me to be perfect but I can`t do what he wants. We have different points of view about relationship but I accepted his flaws. How come that with a little mistakes He can`t accept my explanations and apology? But the problem is I still love him. How I wish that I can turn back times where I did a mistake. I want to make it this time. But how can I make a step if he keeps on yelling at me? I want to talk to him really. It`s really hard to handle a Long Distance Relationship [LDR]. It`s too complicated. We should have a strong faith and trust with each other to work this relationship. Well yeah I have faith in him and I trust him so much. And on his part I don`t know if he trust me and if he have faith on me. I can`t blame him. I did lots of mistakes on the past. But i just hope that this painful heartache will fade or will end soon. Anyhow, I still love him so much.

One sad day

2009-10-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

I feel sad right now. `Cause my favorite niece is not here. They already transferred to another house awhile ago. Well it`s a long story. Now that she`s not here anymore my days will be a sad and empty days. She`s my little angel. When she`s still young I`m the one who took good care of her. I sung a lullaby, fixed her milk, showered her in the bathroom, played with her. It` like I`m her mother. Now that she`s not here anymore I will definitely miss her. Even though that I can visit her. I will still miss her. Everytime I see her I feel like I`m not tired. Whenever I`m stressed-out and I see her I feel okay. I know that I don`t have the right. I`m not her real mother. It`s just that I treated her as my daughter. But it`s okay. I know that wherever they are I know that they`re happy and they`re safe. I`ll just pray for them that they can do it. And I know that God is with them.

New blog!

2009-10-17T15:45:00.000+08:00

Hello bloggers!! I made another blog. A new one I mean. I didn`t update my last blog since last year. And now that I have new blog again I just hope that I can update this every now and then. I hope you will like my being randomness. This blog may have a random posts, thoughts, or anything. Just bear with me guys. And if possible we can be friends. And I accept critics from you guys. I won`t mind. I wanna hear/read your comments. Just take it seriously. I mean don`t take it personally. I mean my posts. Ahahaha. See? I told you I have a random thoughts. Now lets start blogging. And if you like lets Link Ex. if you like. Just tell me if you want.